連絡を取り合う

３０日７月２０１３年 １１：０３時っぽいってポストしてた。

    We both agreed that the more important thing is to keep contact once you leave. It's easy to keep contact with a person who is close to your vicinity, but if you truly care about staying in contact with that person then having distance or even a 13 hour difference is not something that stops you from sending them letters, phone calls, emails, txts, etc. 

    For example, I had a friend who moved to Cali but now i rarely talk with her, verses my friend who lives in China, I am actually still very close to her. I had a 'friend' who lives not even 20 minutes away whom I recently have realized that now we are just aquaintances whereas I am still really close to my friend who lives in Romania!

    So i truly believe that in the end it really comes down to the person and whether or not they want to stay in contact with you. ^^

    And the other day he sent me a message of how he wants to talk about something (still waiting on that), and also asked him a question (hoping its a yes cuz then it would feel like an awkward date thing if he didnt come, but either way i still wanna see the movie)! Will study today and go running later in the afternoon. 

Te amo Muchi

Post writen at: 29日7月2013年、午後１６：０３時。

    At 3:50pm (US Central Time-Chicago),
29th of July (month 7) 2013 summer
Lucy Marie Campos Melendez

died from multiple seizures and euthinasia. 

    6am she was fine.

    When i woke up and went downstairs around 12 (noon) her seizures had already started. I was the last thing she saw.

    Birthday: 7th of July (month 7), 1996.

Tipos~タイプ

２９日７月２０１３年 ０９：４３時っぽいってポストしてた。

    When it comes to my decisions, its ok if something happens and it hurts me but when it hurts someone else it really bugs me. I just can't have that. 

    So got a message and both jose and me were worried for nothing (about if he still wanted to be friends). Sagis get trapped in their own traps sometimes right? And last night we talked pretty late becuz i had to answer some messages and still take a shower, but i'm starting to think that he likes talking on the phone.

    Yesterday went to brazilian BBQ place with fernanda. I got some flirty attention jajaja. There were even a few guys that ask me,"are u brazilian?". Of course i say no and then i asked fernanda how would they tell? (because i thought it was mixed). She said cuz my skin color is the most common and then you know they try to look for common features, etc. She even gave her phone number to one of the cute guys (we both think he's really good looking). While we waited for the train (on our way back) she had commented how she doesn't usually go for darker skin color but this guy was really hot. I agreed with her. Usually i don't go for darker skin not becuz im racists or anything, is just that there arent many that are that good looking ontop of having clean hands and being nice.

    We were talking about what our types were and we both said the same stuff: taller (which then i added that if he was a really great guy, i really dont care about his height becuz this is just an artificial preference which she also agreed with me), dark hair and dark eyes (which i LOVE but we both thought it was funny how marcela is into those blonde american guys. we both agreed that we aren't into american guys.), nice hands (as in they have to be clean. no nails that are too long or dirt under nails. we all get dirt at some point but there are some guys that dont have much hygiene. its mostly a hygiene thing becuz if he doesn't wash his hands, what else does he not wash you know?), and that was it.

    I'm falling asleep again. I'll continue later. =_=

~*~１３：１７時頃~*~

    Gonna go to the store to get oreo cookies... I am so full from the BBQ last night but have to think about what snack i will eat in later days. Honestly I prefer the 牛角 place over brazilian BBQ, i get more selections of meat as well as other dishes, desert, and drinks for a lower price and i prefer the flavors more. My wallet wouldn't be able to handle going to Brazilian BBQ for 130 dollars (for 2 people) just to stare at guys and only have a few selections...

    Still laying in bed. Will finally get up now after a good long rested sleep! I really needed it!!

What to say i dunno

２８日７月２０１３年 １２：５３時っぽいってポストしてた。

    Yesterday sent an invitation as well as called and i never recieved a response so i figured maybe he isn't responding becuz i didnt invite him the night before. But then i thought this was a silly reason and just thought that he was busy and wouldn't be able to come. Me and fernanda went and ate just us 2 and chatted. I like her. Actually i can relate to her more than marcela. 

    When i woke up today, i checked my messages. He had sent this:

"I dont understand you invited me. You didnt invited yesterday i mean marcela's last day but anyone invited me i thought you guys didnt like me." 2:39am

"Dont care about it cuz i fucked up now." 2:57am

   

    Sounds like he went drinking and like he does care. I don't know how to explain without talking about my feelings. All i can think of saying is "i was selfish and i forgot to consider your feelings". Which is true. But other than this i cant mention more. I told jose about the message, basically running to him and saying " jose help me! i dunno what to tell him ". 

    I am worried now because i wonder if he is mad at me or mad at all of us? 

    Everyone knows why he had not come and they know my feelings so i think the responsibility falls on me but i dont have any clue what to say...

    Going to field museum with fernanda today. I wish i could have gone to the science one cuz that one i can spend hours in!! And maybe we will eat afterwards. I'm going to see if i can look up the brazilian BBQ place.

Catching Up

２７日７月２０１３年 １７：０１時っぽいってポストしてた。

    I apologize for having a silent period for a while. Suddenly I was doing so many things one after another that i had neglected my blogging time. But no one reads this so i really dont need to apologize. After regular class session ended i had about 2 weeks of nothing and everything. This is when i finally decided that i would pick a grad uni in japan and not in florida. With all the living and transportation expenses, Japan is still cheaper. Plus it makes more sense for my language skills to be there. Next comes summer class and meeting new people while doing the book project with Jose and other fun activities like improving my time for 5K. I've gotten to an average of 6minutes and 30seconds.

    Then i had met some girls from Brazil (fernanda and marcela), and they spoiled me. XD I can't remember when was the last time ihad pringle chips. I know they are good and they are half the price as in brazil but it's still junk food! 

    Today morning Marcela left. Probably she is on a plane to Brazil still. And she told us she would be there for 1 day and then go to some island in the vicinity of madagascar and meet her parents there. It sounds like they are doing a sort of resort vacation. That is definitely something she would do. jajaja

    Because she was leaving we went to the bar with her last night and made it a memorable night for her. She made out with the cute bartender. Personally he isn't really my type but this was for her. We were doing all the background moves to speed up this thing between them cuz otherwise if we had left it to her, nothing would have happened! Jajaja she has like no flirting skills whatsoever... 

    I asked her about his kissing/etc, and she's like 'he was amaaazing. he knows how to move his hands and uui'. And then i told her how i just think its so hot when a guy holds you agaisnt a wall and being a bit rough cuz all you are thinking is 'take me dammit!'. Of course she agreed and i'm glad she had a good time.

    Otherwise i have just been with friends (with those that are proactive and want to hang out), and just keep studying, exercising, and watching TV on my own time. I do know some people that have been asking me what i have been doing becuz they are curious as to the pictures i have posted on facebook and also telling me that we should hang out. But of course i dont say much becuz if they were really friends, they would already know and there would be no need to ask and there really is no need to be hesitant to ask me to hang out. The reason i dont ask them is becuz i have been doing all the asking in the past; i have been giving but then they dont give. Naturally, I dont ask them anymore.

    I have also figured out my plan B which is very similar to plan A. Ma thought i was gonna pick FIU as my second choice (my plan B), but i told her i have my whole life to come back and visit everyone there. I don't have my whole life to go to grad school somewhere else and there arent many things holding me in US anyway... She chose where we would live when we moved to the US, now it's my turn.

~*~２０：３４時頃~*~

    ゴロゴロしたい〜〜〜〜ん！

    I asked him today but no response. Definitely busy. But besides that we are all planning on going to the imax theatre on wednesday. We have to pay for tickets online and then get assigned seats. I have never done this before...

    Earlier today went to a tapas place that ma was raving about when she went with her co-worker. I think she was more impressed with their service the last time and the fact that they gave them free desert and apetizer, but i didn't really like the place. When we went today it wasn't busy at all yet the service was slow, and the food looked complicated but when you bite into it i felt the flavors were bland. It's not a place that i would go to again even if they offered me free food and better service. The food has to be amazing to start with. If the food is shit then there is no point in going out to eat there. Then comes the service and prizes. Again, not a place i would consider going again.

    I tried a sushi place with fernanda today and was just curious as to how they made their dragon rolls. They were good but like Jose mentioned; their prices are a bit high for food that you can get anywhere. There is still the japanese bar (izakaya) place that we spotted on our way to gyu-kaku to try as well as the korean BBQ place close to the karaoke place up north. That gyu-kaku place is so addicting!!!! Then me and fernanda saw a place dor brazilian BBQ, and decided to try it this week before she leaves. Tomorrow we will go to the field museum and probably eat after that but dont know where yet. 

    Right now on train to go back home. Very tired. Very sleepy... =_=

エチこと

２７日７月２０１３年 １１：４９時っぽいってポストしてた。

    When I saw X in person my feelings were fluttering with excitement, but it also was painful because i knew this was just me; that my feelings wouldn't be returned. When he was curious as to what we were going to do, I was excited to mention it but then became sad becuz if i had invited him, i would have felt shittier. So i decided not to...

    At the place it was so difficult for me to keep a happy, smilling face becuz i was so sad inside. At one point i started crying a bit while i had my head turned away. I tried to hold it in and when i looked back at them, i smiled, ... he said my eyes look glazy, ... i look away again.

    Finally Marcela felt better since we helped her get together with the bartender that she thought was good-looking. They even made out jajaja. I'm happy for her that she had an amazing last night. If only i had remembered that she told me he was cute, we would have come here more often and try to get them together. Although she has absolutely no flirting skills... We will have to work on that. (^_−)−☆

    I was even a little more sad becuz i was thinking: jose and fernanda already did it (making out and stuff), now marcela is doing it, when is it my turn?. It was sad for me becuz the guy i want to kiss doesn't even recognize me as a hot babe yknow?! And the one time on the subway where i saw a group of good-looking guys, i was too preocupied thinking about directions instead of talking to them and asking for their numbers. TT__TT

話し続かない

２４日７月２０１３年 １３：５９時っぽいってポストしてた。

    時々東京に住んでる人が分かんないじゃん！なんかさっきある人と話してたけど俄かに私にしゃべるのを終わった。一つの理由は「ｓｎｓ services became disconnected」と言って、二つの理由は「仕事にとってマラジアに行く」と言った。その後FBをちょっと使ったけどチャットも終わった。知裕と俄かにしゃべるのを終わった。。。なぜ終わったも分かんない。私ってつまんない人？怖い人？ある人と関係がない時俄かに話し続かない？

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화분

２２日７月２０１３年 １６：５７時っぽいってポストしてた。

Alex Chu – 화분 (Flowerpot)

멀리서 멀리서 멀리서 그대가 오네요

Meol-li-seo meol-li-seo meol-li-seo geu-dae-ga o-ne-yo

이 떨리는 마음을 어떻게 말해야 하나요

I ddeol-li-neun ma-eum-eul eo-ddeoh-ge mal-hae-ya ha-na-yo

그댄 처음부터 나의 마음을 빼앗고

Geu-dae ch’eo-eum-bu-t’eo na-eui ma-eum-eul bbae-at-go

나을수 없는 병을 내게 주었죠

Na-eul-su eobs-neun byeong-eul nae-ge ju-eott-jyo

화분이 될래요 나는 늘 기도하죠

Hwa-pun-i doe-rae-yo na-neun neul gi-do-ha-jyo

난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될게요

Nan geu-dae ja-keun ch’ang-ga-e hwa-pun-i doe-ge-yo

아무 말 못해도 바랄 수 없어도

A-bu mal mot-hae-do ba-ral su eob-seo-do

가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며

Ga-ggeum geu-dae-eui mi-so-wa son-gil-eul ba-deu-myeo

잠든 그대 얼굴 한없이 볼 수 있겠죠

Jam-deun geu-dae eol-gul han-eob-seo bol su itt-gett-jyo

멀리도 멀리도 멀리도 그대가 가네요

Meol-li-do meol-li-do meol-li-do geu-dae-ga ga-ne-yo

떨어지는 눈물을 어떻게 달래야 하나요

Ddeol-eo-ji-neun nun-mul-eul eo-ddeoh-ge dal-hae-ya ha-na-yo

그댄 처음부터 나의 마음을 가졌고

Geu-dae ch’eo-eum-bu-t’eo na-eui ma-eum-eul ga-jyeott-go

나을 수 없는 병을 앓게 한 거죠

Nan-eul su eobs-neun myeong-eul anh-ge han-geo-jyo

화분이 되고픈 나는 늘 기도하죠

Hwa-pun-i doe-go-p’eun na-neun neul gi-do-ha-jyo

난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될게요

Nan geu-dae ja-keun ch’ang-ga-e hwa-pun-i doe-ge-yo

아무 말 못해도 바랄 수 없어도

A-bu mal mot-hae-do ba-ral su eob-seo-do

가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며

Ga-ggeum geu-dae-eui mi-so-wa son-gil-eul ba-deu-myeo

잠든 그대 얼굴 한없이 볼 수 있겠죠

Jam-deun geu-dae eol-gul han-eob-seo bol su itt-gett-jyo

*난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될게요

Nan geu-dae ja-keun ch’ang-ga-e hwa-pun-i doe-ge-yo

아무 말 못해도 바랄 수 없어도

A-bu mal mot-hae-do ba-ral su eob-seo-do

가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며

Ga-ggeum geu-dae-eui mi-so-wa son-gil-eul ba-deu-myeo

잠든 그대 얼굴 한없이 볼 수 있겠죠

Jam-deun geu-dae eol-gul han-eob-seo bol su itt-gett-jyo

TRANSLATION:

You come to me from some place far away

My heart trembles, how can I express my feeling?

You stole my heart from the start

And give me an incurable sickness

I want to become a flowerpot. I pray always

I’ll become a flowerpot that sits on your small windowsills

Though I can’t speak or want anything at all

I’ll be able to see you smile and feel your touch once a while

And I’ll be the one gazing at your face as you sleep

You leave me for some place far away

How can I stop my tears from falling?

You had my heart from the start

And made me suffer an incurable sickness

I want to become a flowerpot. I pray always.

I’ll become a flowerpot that sits on your small windowsills

Though I can’t speak or want anything at all

I’ll be able to see you smile and feel your touch once a while

And I’ll be the one gazing at your face as you sleep

I’ll become a flowerpot that sits on your small windowsills

Though I can’t speak or want anything at all

I’ll be able to see you smile and feel your touch once a while

And I’ll be the one gazing at your face as you sleep