29 8月 2013

春夏秋冬

28日8月13:32時っぽいImagine Dragonsというバンドを聞きながらポストした。

 今朝「春夏秋冬(しゅんかしゅうとう)」という歌を初めて聞いて好きになって心の中に柔らかい気持ちを増えてた。昨日電車男からお土産をもらったからさその気持ちをもっと感じれる。幸せになればいいかな。。。まだこの空しい気持ちを持ってて、何故知らない。



空しい(むなしい):vain, futile, void, empty, ineffective, lifeless


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〜*〜00:34時頃〜*〜

 今日もギュカくに行ってハンサムなウェイタとしゃべてFBの名前を探すのを申し入れた!それから食べた後でホセさんと一緒にカフェシトに飲みに行ってFBを交換して嬉しいわ。食べた後でちょっと待ってたという事はいいかな!この事を考えれないさ。(笑)で、交換した後、ウェイタとホセさんと私はFBのグループにもう一回話しながら、ホセさんはウェイタについて「ジェシの事に興味あるよ」とか「ジェシが美人だと思われるね」と考えて言ってた。
 今、まだ知らないけど、もし。。。、私の事興味あれば素晴らしい場合でしょ?!
 じゃあ〜
 これが事実かどうか見よう。

 (他のノート:私の日本語は上手じゃないけどさもっと一生懸命に勉強して練習する予定がある。)





温かい

28日8月00:23時っぽいポストした。

    電車男お土産を送ったわ(^∇^)〜小包に富士山のステーカと小さい手紙があって嬉しかった。ヾ(@⌒ー⌒@)ノ 手紙には小さいノートを書いても嬉しかったわ。けど電車男に小包を送らなれば悪い気持ちを感じ、小包を送りべき。だからすぐに小さいお土産を送る。

     ***(ノo´・∀・)ノ゙ ⌒☆:*:+・んちゃぁ・+:*゚☆ 何もをあげるってもいいと言ったのにこんな事出来なかった。ごめんね(>人<;)。だから、***に小さいアメリカの普通的な事を送ったわ。I hope you like it and can enjoy.
     ***ありがとう。いつも***の優しさを表すありがとう。
     Abrazos y besos, ジェシ。



お土産(おみやげ)
小包(こづつみ)



27 8月 2013

メール送るね〜

27日8月2013年00:59時っぽいってポスト書いた。


     He has been so kind in sending me a message everyday when waking up and before going to sleep. And then today he sends me a message (of his own accord) saying "今日は会社にいるから、メールしにくっす。ごめんよ。" which I responded to "大丈夫よ。", and he said again, "もうすぐ、会社でよっと(^^)". Very sweat! It's basically like this "I want to talk to you or I haven't disappeared" type of implication. I won't know for certain what specifically he was worrying about but it shows he was worrying in a polite kind of way.

     And also he is very blunt which I like but sometimes he pushes it. That's ok too cuz I do this too to find out how far the other person is willing to go and I am very clear to express that I don't feel comfortable. I'll literally say, "i don't feel comfortable". And that's it...jajaja. (When I told Jose that I think this way he was like, "omgosh you really do think like a guy". Except I disagree since i think with both sides of my brain at the same time. :P)

     Anyway lets be tactful and test out the messages frequency.

     I'm done doing notes for today and I skipped running today cuz it was one of those "sit on your ass" days. Can you believe my ankles are still swollen from walking so much in the city?!?!?!!!! ~Night



26 8月 2013

Happy summer

25日8月2013年00:50時っぽいってポスト書いた。


      Finally found a use for this. I still remember how that サラリマン just handed it to me while i was walking to the bus stop. All i know is that he was talking really fast with this exhausted expression on his face, and i couldn't say no so i just took it and did this awkward "ok..." type of smile. I never used it until today because i had already bought myself my own fan (the one i can fold), cuz these don't last very long when you are carrying them around.

     It kinda just sits on top of my desk...looking at me. :O
     OMGOSH! jajaja. My fan is a pervert!

     And now I have 2 weeks left of summer vacation. I had already given up on X since I figured he didn't have interest in me (片想いだった), and I have moved on. When I told myself to move on i was a little sad for like. . .a week and i kinda acted mean towards him but i felt like being mean. How can you NOT like me? I am awesome! I know he thinks I'm attractive so i don't get why i was not pursued. :P So most likely I will never know, but I really don't give a shit anyway. 

     Then I had hung out with the group, although we split once Marcela and Fernanda went back to Brazil. Me an Jose are gonna do a "i miss you" video for them. Hanging out with Javier though, you really need a lot of energy... that's for sure. And not wear a dress. 
     Since it has been summer, I've been wearing all my summer clothes including dresses that i don't usually wear since it's always so fuckin cold. And one day i happen to wear one while hanging out with him and he asks me if i want to throw a frisbee at the beach before the movie starts. I'm here like ...... um....usually i would love to but i put effort into my hair today and i'm wearing a fuckin dress! I'm not gonna go sweat so that my hair starts to turn curly, and I start sweating under this fabric. And i can't exactly run around in a dress. I just thought it was a stupid question. Of course it was hard to say no, so I 'participated' (not using 100% of my energy), but not long after I said "i'm sweating" blah blah blah and sat down in the shade.
     I'm sorry i wasn't much fun, but my hair is important. :P I may be a tomboy, but I do have my 'girly' days. Actually this wasn't a girly thing per say. It's just that when you put effort into your wardrobe and you know, looking nice, you don't want to sweat...unless you are about to have sex in the next few minutes but you would be taking those clothes off anyway so it's a different situation.

     Then I've had the joy of having 牛角, and I actually learned they are opening a location in miami! :DDDDD I hope they open while I am over there! I know Joaquinito isn't huge on eating like. . .any meat, but I'm going regardless if he wants to try it or not. I wasn't a huge lover of meat to begin with, but after having yakiniku, o my fack! I need to have my weekly iron intake. :P 

     I tried brazilian BBQ with Fernanda but it just wasn't the same...I only liked certain meats, and I was growing impatient lol when what I wanted didn't come around, and its kinda expensive... Plus I rather cook it myself. I guess I like gyukaku too much. XD ? NAAAAA! There is no such thing!

    Hmmm...what else was there? Oh yea! I'm gonna make my notes into a PDF document. Figured it would be nice to have a digital copy on top of what I have already done for class. It's nice to have the physical copy when I am in class so I don't forget words, but other times I just want a digital one so I can quickly hyperlink to a grammar point or something. But gonna do notes before class starts first, and then the PDF. (On top of doing paperwork for graduate school. That should be fun.)


〜*〜23:52時頃〜*〜

友達:ジェシーー、日本の何が好きで勉強してんの?
私:hmmmいい質問ね。
今国際関係の事に興味あるし日本の大学の方がアメリカの大学よりもっと安いし、日本に勉強して仕事したい。また子供の時お母さんは何処に住むのを決めた。今私、決めるよ!
けど色んな事が好き。なんか、他人の考え方、料理、歴史、トカトカ。

     But I know from myself that I tend to answer questions in different ways all the time. Even for the same question. Everyone always asks the same questions that tend to be more like interviewing you but not necessarily getting to the reasons behind something or how something came to be.

     Changing the topic : I found these awesome Iphone cases and so putting them on my xmas/bday list. I mean one is like 3 bucks, the other is around 7 bucks. I'm not asking for much. The only thing i really want is a Tria Beauty.

     Changing the topic again : I'm not sure whether to believe that he has interest in me. He did answer my questions seriously and thought, but I know he has to be talking to other girls. So I can't be truly sure until I see with my own eyes in Osaka/Tokyo. We can flirt all we want but I will be guarding my feelings still. I hate infidelity and I'm taking no part in it. I do like that he basically has kept in contact with me like....everyday since he messaged me (yes he messaged me first. actually he's the one that found me), and has been respectful but like I said, I have to be tactful until I arrive over there. That's when I will know for sure and will find out. For now I am a sexy flirting biatch! :P

     Which reminds me, I'm kinda avoiding going to Cafecito so much only cuz Michael is being too obvious on his crush on me. He has his hot friend in on it too. The other day, me and Jose were just chillin' at Cafecito and we find that he and his hot friend keep glancing our way from time to time, and of course Michael chills with us too, chats, compliments and teases me, etc. 片想い's are so....heartbreaking. 
     I just don't feel anything for the guy. I don't find him attractive, and when he does talk with me he's mostly being a teasing flirt to which I can't really connect with. He only talks seriously to Jose and that's fine with me. Plus, it seems like he has that whole ''multiple jobs", "i do music on the side but i have this job as a safety net so i'm not a starving artist" sort of thing. 

     When I am with someone, or will be with someone, I want them to be successful in whatever they want to achieve or are already in the process of doing. I don't wanna hear "i'm waiting for this..." or "i'm not sure how to do it yet (or what to do)". I want them to be confident in a goal and already going for it! Cuz I have goals and I am doing them right now, so I expect the same from my partner. Only because it is important to have a stable job/career with stable income. And I don't mean being rich either. Just something where me and the other person don't have to worry about how to pay bills and other important shit.

     Anyway this post is long enough. I'm going to take a shower and do some more notes. Tomorrow I will also be doing notes and studying. Day after tomorrow I'll research grad stuff again. She already asked me "what are your plans for this week" and told me earlier "you should tan outside. you never know when the sun will be this hot again". I said, "i've had a whole month of relaxing and hanging out with friends and tanning as I walk. It's time to study now". I'm sorry but I have priorities to take care of. Night~ お休み〜

25 8月 2013

ふぃん

19日8月2013年 01:46時っぽいってポストしてた。


なぜ沢山質問を聞いたのか。
なぜ彼は私の好きな人を知りたいのか。

なぜ?!!

質問を答えば。。。8
何も変えないと思うよ。



やることリスト

15日8月2013年 10:50時っぽいってポストしてた。

    Got my first flu yesterday. Stomach flu. When i woke up i was just thinking, "what the heck is this?!?!!". Because i've never had a flu before. I rarely get sick, and when i do get sick its just a cold. Otherwise I am dealing with my allergies. :P

    Got my info for Sophia Uni. Today i can actually sit up and keep my eyes open for more than 20 minutes, so i will get my info for Ritsumeikan and Doshisha. Also have to get practice book for JLPT 3. If i fail thats ok, but i am aiming to pass! After that, have to look at language schools in Tokyo area. I can look in Kansai area too but i want to go to Tokyo since last time i didn't go there. And now that i have friends and i can say more than just a few words, we can hang out! ☆*:.。. o(≧▽≦)o .。.:*☆

    I already have a list of things i want to do. じゃあ〜始めましょう!
やることリスト:
①温泉
②お好み焼きの店
③富士山
④Disney World
⑤アキバで買い物する
⑥ギブリ
⑦居酒屋
⑧ラーメンを売る店
⑨色んな祭り(七夕、七五三、秋田県でかながわ祭り、トカトカ)
①⓪映画館
①①ラブホテル。笑笑
①②カラオケ!!!!
①③プリクラ
①④友達と海に行く
①⑤サウナ/スパー

    I want to do other things of course. This is just what i can think of (at the moment). I hope to get accepted to the school i want and enjoy my time with others. ^^



09 8月 2013

忙しい

9日8月2013年 18:37時っぽいってポストしてた。


    If i am not hanging out with friends, i am either chatting with others/jogging/studying/ or watching an episode of something. But most likely it's the first 3. I barely watch anything anymore.

    And I really have to get my papers together now for applying to grad school in Japan. I am dreading all the paperwork and being anxious for a reply (whether i get accepted or not), but at the same time i am excited! I will also do a summer program but I don't know if whether to go to s.Korea or Kyoto. 

    I have started learning hangul ( 항글 ) last week, and i find it easy so far. Of course it's gonna take me some time to memorize like a pro, but this also takes patience and dedication. Ja! 

    Oh and I'm reading a few romance novels. For example: 


    Although the main female character really annoys me. She's basically a 20-something year old virgin. Not fun... From my experience i would pick the person with experience rather than a virgin. Virgins don't know what they are doing and are still learning.




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