30 11月 2013




Final school week


     Found a job offer in school but its for a club. . . . and I would have to persuade people to come to the club as well as promote their energy drink. So the money depends on how many people you get in the club and how many drinks are sold. :/ Not really my thing. . .

     Last night stayed up until 3am-ish writing something for japanese class. Because I didn't know what to write about and also i woke up around 8am? (and still felt really tired), ate breakfast while talking with the mom, talked with BF (was really happy and surprised to get a call! :0-----> :D ), talked to the mom again for a little bit, and went back to sleep. My nap was. . . . 2.5 hours! ⓪_⓪ Even after my nap I was really tired and dizzy. フラフラで歩いてた。What is happening to me?>__<

24 11月 2013



     Tomorrow is the last day of this school quarter and i'm dreading the animation history final. >____> I'm not good at remembering names AT ALL!!! You tell me your name (and I just met you), 30 minutes later I have already forgotten. =__= I know. It's terrible but it's something my brain doesn't remember. If you are a constant part of my life, I will remember your name, but if not, then I wont. . . There are only a few actors names that I remember because I watch them a lot or I think they're hot, but it's like. . . . . . . 5 people?

     Anyway for the exam, I have to remember names of directors, names of animation titles and main characters of that animation. But I'm excited because then I can get more sleep! :DD

     The past few days I have been sleeping about 10 - 12 hours of sleep everyday and I still feel tired after waking up. :0 Then on wednesday me and friends will go to Gyukaku. Just to kinda celebrate a bunch of stuff: end of the quarter, start of winter break, wedding engagement for my friend and she is also quitting her job, etc. So 2 things to look forward to so far:

1. more sleep
2. gyukaku on wednesday

     And of course, there are other things too. :)

     Recently I got a new sofa and a rug, and the mom wanted a new christmas tree. I don't mind not having a xmas tree but she wanted it so whatever. (It's actually up at the moment). And also we got a new painting (ok its a picture that was printed on canvas paper), and it looks pretty cool. So now the living room looks so different and clean! The sofa is soooo comfortable! :D I slept on it already a few times (nap), but if it wasn't so cold downstairs I would sleep on it.

     But I want to live on my own. ^^ I taught my friend how to cook breakfast (and next friday I'll teach her how to do something for dinner) and I realized that I want to be more responsible and I like cooking for someone else. I don't mind the other person cooking, but sometimes I want something to do. ^^'' I need to grow up in this sense.

     Ok no more procrastination. . . . . back to studying. x______x

17 11月 2013



    So apparently I can't write posta in my laptop. I don't know why, so now I am writing from my cellphone more often. But I wanted to say quickly that this week and part of next week will be very busy. This school quarter is ending and I have finals and projects. After that I have JLPT to study for but i wont be busy like this week. 

    Anyways, it got colder, and now I want to cuddle with him more than ever so i'm not so cold going to sleep. Jajaja Yup. . . . I admit that he is my addiction. 

    I colored my hair (the blonde part) back to my natural color (brown). It's kinda annoying to keep coloring it and a bit expensive. I want to spend that money on an airplane instead. Oh! And I am almost done writing the book. :3 But because of finals and lack of sleep, I am not writting so much at the moment. 

    Today I took a 2/2.5 hour nap, and after I woke up I was still really tired. I will be so glad after monday ends . . . . On Monday night i'll sleep like an old rock! ! !

    And other news ---> build up your alcohol tolerance before drinking bourbon! I got a massive hangover the next day. Also make sure you have nothing important to do 2 days after drinking bourbon. But I want to go to the bar with my BF.ヾ(@⌒ー⌒@)ノ

Recess Dream


     I had a strange dream. I dreamed that I went into a Mcdonalds and I was trying these new recess (because it makes sense that Mcdonalds is distributing them), and this lady was like, "but these recess are different and are only sold in this area. can you tell the difference?".

     This time I just took the whole thing into my mouth which I don't normally do, but I did it anyway, and after chewing for a little bit I noticed the difference. It was extremely chewy and got so stuck to my teeth that I had a hard time opening my mouth. I couldn't tell her the difference so I just spelled out the word "peanut" in the air with my finger, and then she said, "yes yes. that's it".

     The rest of the time I was trying to get the recess off my teeth, and . . . . .

     . . . . . that was it. ^^''
     I wonder what it means.

07 11月 2013



    As I open my facebook page (FINALLY!!!), I can show some of the things that I have already done. I still have TONS of unfinished work in my USB drive, but at least there is something there. I really need to build my portfolio more. And I still need to add my animations. I have some test animation but they are not really finished things. They are more like. . . .drafts? or like. . . .small school assignments.
     I'm just glad I finally published the freakin page. XD

     And on that note, I am changing to a totally different subject because I can. :P

     I told my ma and my brother and they were both happy about it (I was so nervous to tell them. really I was!! >_< ). Joaquinito did say things like, "wao! how many area codes are between you guys?" (as a joke), but like I told my ma, sometimes you just have to take the chance. ^^
     Now when I go to Japan I have to find a place to do a marathon or half marathon, so that I can call him, be like, "yo! i found the place! come over so we can run it", he comes over and boom---> destination marathon! :DDD I am not sure if I can do a marathon by that time but definitely I will try to gain more distance so I can do a half marathon.

     But definitely I will do another 10km this January. It's the same route, so I have a better idea of when to start speeding up. And this time I am taking my ipod with me. ^^

     Hopefully there will be snow during winter break. . . .cuz I really want to try snowboarding. ~(^  v ^)/*



 さっき韓国人の友達にスノーボードしたいのかと聞いたけど「ごめんね。韓国に帰るから行けないけど一緒にすぐに遊ぼうか」と答えって、ま〜、ちょっと悲しくなったね。。。+__+ 最後の遊べる時になるでしょ?TT__TTだから、今週末に一緒に遊ぶつもり。。。悲しい日になるね。
 フェルナンダとマルセーラがブラジルにか帰らないといけなかった時、同じ気持ちを感じたけど、帰った後で、今もまだ連絡するよ。(*´∀`*)ノ 時々ブラジル人の友達と会いたい場合にLINEやWhatsappでメッセージと電話かけるけどいつか新しいことがあると、すぐに話したいけどさ違い時間があるね。後でその新しいことを言えるけどさ。。。もうニューズは古くになるのじゃないでしょか。どうしようかな。




05 11月 2013

Clothes or boyfriend?


    So like other bloggers, I also follow other blogs :P, and I got a notification from this dude with the title " The Truth about Sex in Japan ". I was all " uuuuh what is it about this time? hmmm ". But before reading that post, I read this and I find myself getting a little sad. . .because I realized what the topic was about. It reminded me when I was taking my political science class (about Japan and sometimes talking about international relations with China, Korea, etc) and whenever we talked it seemed like there was never any happy news. . .
    I even remember my teacher telling me "頑張って" (during a discussion about female workers in Japan), but that the other girl in the class (not including the 3rd girl) would be more popular than me because she has blond hair, blue eyes, and a really pointy nose, whereas I had brown eyes, brown hair, not such a pointy nose and was 'too quiet' so I wouldn't really stick out as much. Jajajaja I guess I am too 'bland' for some people. XD But that didn't matter to me. (I have my amazing latina skills. :P) Anyways,

    whenever we talked it always seemed a little sad, but there is still something to look forward to right? I mean, 40% is a really surprising number for people who aren't interested in sex, but what about the other 60%? I just find it hard to believe that even though the number of people saying "i dont want relationships, marriage, or sex" increases, there are still people that think differently.

    Isn't it just nice to go home or go to your boyfriends/girlfriends home and spend time with them or go to a park or something? Love doesn't disappear. :P

    Honestly I think saying something like "i get to go shopping, and hang with my girlfriends and do all these other things, so I love my independence". . . .good for you. That's not my idea of independence but ok. . . But at the end of the day, your clothes or your job is not going to be there to hug you when you feel sad.

    And the other thing: I hate infidelity. That's where I can't change my mind. I learned from my dad what not to do, and that's something I'm never gonna do. If I am with a guy and he wants to cheat on me? Ok. But that would be the end of our relationship. No 2nd chances. I demand respect, I don't ask for it. :P

    Ok. The end. Next subject. I'm still curious what a love hotel looks like. One of my friends told me there were 'themes' and you choose the rooms from pictures? I dunno, I'm just curious. Whether or not I wanna go in one. . . . . I dunno. XD

    But this song is pretty good when you're in the mood. . . . Of course silence is fine too. ^^

    I heard it in the car the other day and I liked it. :)
    And for some reason my ma showed me this song. . .the tune is catchy but didn't like the lyrics. Then saw this video and thought "oh cool". I think the Indian guy is funny since he prefers japanese curry over indian curry. XD I love カレー ! 

    I'm so envious of their japanese  =______=. . . .
Especially the guy from California.



    This 3D animation class is driving me crazy. :P So I am looking forward to when this quarter ends, and my winter break starts. I want to go snowboarding with my friends. And I also have to look at where I will stay. OMYGOSH WHY IS TOKYO SO EXPENSIVE?!?!?!?!?????? TT________TT

Things I need to do:

go to financial aid office next monday (see if i can become a part-time student. . . . omygosh i'm so poor XD)
go to dentist tomorrow (friday)
buy more underwear and pants =_= ( i have too many hello kitty underwear. how did that happen?. . . .)
answer my italian penpal and philippine penpal
email Waseda
study for JLPT
finish thesis for grad. school =_________=
finish creating facebook portfolio (to show for potential future work)
figure out grant/loans stuff for grad school
get paper work done for grad school
figure out where the hell i will stay T^T
homework for monday and this friday
decide what animation project to do for next school quarter (should i do 祖父祖母 or comic strip idea?迷う. . .)
stop being so distracted from K. . . .what the hell. . . . i think i have addiction >___>
muster up the courage to tell my mom and brother >_<

中毒. . . .that's the word of the week.

But I really don't mind. *^^*
I can be happy right? ^^
So I wanna listen to this song while I fall asleep in his arms. (It's from one of my favorite anime, and I don't watch much anime :P)
Happy 1 month anniversary sweetie! *^^*

I think this song really reflects how I feel. *^^*

I know this doesn't have english translations, >_< but it's about kissing.
The song is called Besame by Camila.

03 11月 2013



    SOOOOOOO My shoulders are a little sore from carrying my laptop in my backpack, but it worked well. ^^ I actually got some work down in class and I'm driving back home so I don't have to carry my laptop in the train. But today felt good. It's the first day that I wasn't rushing to finish my homework. I could relax. (insert slobber here) And I made time to meet with my advisor about graduating.

    I think I'll become a part time student. That way I don't have a huge shit load of debt from loans and that money can go somewhere else. All I NEED is 2 japanese classes, but I also want to take some animation project classes. Otherwise I have time to focus on the thesis for JP graduate school (really hope Sophia accepts me >_<''' or Waseda. . . .I have other options but they are not my first options simply because of the program they have. But it's my back-up plan. . .at the moment), and do more drawings for my portfolio and the book project with Jose. I want to finish this book so I can make money :3. Also have more time to study my japanese. Is so horribuls >____>. . .
    Although to be honest, lately I have thought about continuing with my own projects. . . I like my stories and they are done already. 

    I found a person who can help me with being published and all that stuff (even for illustrations) but she's in Tokyo T^T, and the internship that she is offering is this December (again in Tokyo T^T). But I have stayed in contact with her.

01 11月 2013

HW HW HW〜宿題〜



    I finally learned how to MAKE a video and how to EXPORT a freakin video from Maya (computer program for 3D animation)!!! I think i have been sitting in front of my laptop now for. . . .4 hours? And I'm itching to go running, sing in the rain, do something!

    Here is my video that I made:

    I think I'll bring my laptop to school on Mondays so I can start my projects in class and not fall asleep. ^^'' My Mac USB doesn't work on a windows computer so I figured I could bring my laptop to that class and start on my project during class. That way, i have already started something ^^''.

    Next is more japanese homework. I have to make a conversation in japanese about politics (what people are interested). The one I did with my partner, i wasn't satisfied with it so i asked the scary 近松先生 if i can do it again. So I have to turn it in by monday. Yea!! :D I have to stay on her nice side and make a good impression because later I will ask her for a recommendation for the schools in Japan. I also need at least a 3rd teacher to ask, but I am not sure who yet. . . Maybe my animation teacher? But I turned in a half-assed project for his last class. >_<

    Hmmm. . .in any case, I signed up to to TOEFL (english language test). It's one of the requirements for Waseda (in order to enter). I am surprised but all these school just want a bunch of paperwork. And I'll take the 日本語能力試験(JLPT) in beginning of december.

    Oh and happy birthday ~~ :3 cuz I know you're reading this. :P
    Here it's still 27th, but there its 28th right? ^^

~*~After homework~*~

This is what I wrote for conversation: >___> no more! NO MORE HOMEWORK! :.....D


新しい会った人: ええ。それは残念ですね。
新しい会った人: 実は、聞いた事がありませんですけど大切そうですね。何が出来ますか。
新しい会った人: 私もそう思います。今私の国にはいつも友達、家族共に一緒に政治について戦いますけど、政治に多くの関心があるし国の明るい将来を作りたいし戦うのがいいだと思います。
新しい会った人: それはそうですね。例えば政治家に投票する時にその日に全部の店や会社やを閉めて、みんなが投票しに行きます。
新しい会った人: 絶対に大きいな関心です。今も、先週の火曜日に新しい政治家に投票する日です。あそこでいれば絶対に学校に行きません。
新しい会った人: だから投票出来ない人が小さくなります。


Yeeeeeeaaaa. . . . I didn't wanna do this homework >___> but I wanted more points. . .



    The other day I went with my teacher, another student (who I didn't know), and Jose to watch this movie. There were other people that were gonna see the movie but they were going on a Saturday; we were going on a Wednesday. (A theater in downtown Chicago) And it was not a mystery that me and my teacher were crying towards the end of the movie. (Although she was crying a whole lot more than I did. . . XD)

    After the movie, we walked a little bit and my teacher asked us what we thought about the situation. I wasn't sure what to say, so then she said "my husband said it was crazy to switch back your kids".
    We (me and Jose) both agreed. I said something like "I wouldn't switch back the kids, I would just make them all a bigger family. Join the two families, because as a parent I dunno if I could ignore the other child. I would be wondering as to who they are. And when they grow up, and if they learn that the parents they always lived with are not their real parents, maybe they will try to find their biological parents because they have questions. So I think it's better also for the kids if both families just become one family."

    I said that because for kids, the only thing that's important to them is time. ^^ And if something goes wrong with their family they will always blame themselves. Can you imagine your son/daughter finding you when they are older and asking you "why did you not look for me? Why did you leave me?".

    But to clarify some things, this is a movie about 2 couples who find out that their son is not their biological son, and go through the decision of whether to switch them or not. One family is super uptight. The house looks like a freakin' hotel with a dad working for a big architectural company and a housewife, while the other like in a smaller place where they have to share pretty much everything and the dad is a electrical technician (i think) that owns a shop and the mom looks like she works at a small bento-making place. Personally I like the 2nd family I mentioned. They don't have tons of money, but they are happy. ^^

    The other family (they are on the left of the poster) seemed so distant with their son. . . . and the guy wasn't the greatest father or husband. >___> I'd prefer my husband to be home more often than to always think about his job. . .

    Actually I remember my host family, the dad was like . . . . . never home. I wondered how the mom dealt with that, and what the kids thought. There were a few nights in the weekends when he was there but he felt like a total stranger to me. ^^'' I did think it was sweet of her to wait for him at night but I wondered how she stayed awake. . .jajaja. (cuz he would return home at like 11pm!!!)

    Anyways, great movie. ^^ I recommend it. 

    Even in class we were discussing what we think of the japanese title and the english title. All of us liked the japanese title better because it expresses the message of the movie. The english one seemed to care more about a small aspect of the movie and come from a different perspective. The movie was clearly from the fathers' perspective and how he is Becoming A Father (which is the translation I provided :3) and not necessarily pointing out similarities or differences. 

Love with a westie


    While someone had posted a comment on how to meet western women in Osaka, another person commented saying they recommended a book. But you know sometimes just providing a link may show the lack of effort put into responding. (yes i said it.) So i did a small reply saying "be yourself, don't be afraid to show you like her". But i guess that wasn't much. :/ There was the reply of "thanks for the advice but how do i meet western women in Osaka?". You can find the conversation here (within the comments section). I don't really want to answer because I think this person just needs confidence and is approaching the situation from an odd angle. . .

    How would you meet ANY woman? Meet your friends' friends, talk to people who work with you, or talk to anyone that looks interesting or fun (like the girl behind the counter at that shop you always go to), randomly emailing someone. . .:3 I mean it really should not be an issue whether that girl is japanese or 'western'. A girl is a girl in my eyes.

    And who cares whether japanese men are popular or not? This is what I mean by confidence. It isn't important if people whom you are NOT going to date are not interested in your 'type'. If you meet someone who says 'i don't like japanese men' or 'i don't like people who speak french all the time', then there is no point in hanging out with them. Why waste your time with someone like that?

    I once met a girl who told me that she absolutely hated spanish. Spanish is like my every essence. . . I can't just delete the folder called "Spanish" from myself. So i stopped hanging out with her cuz for someone to say they hate a language, they obviously are putting their frustration on the wrong thing. It's like hating a banana! (Excluding the people that don't like bananas), maybe you don't like the way its' cooked, but a banana will always be a banana. And just like a place. The people is what makes a place. If someone tells me they don't like a place, I'll be like "well maybe you don't like the people IN that place, cuz if you take those people out of the picture, the place is just a place".

    But this is about dating right?
    So my point is, why focus your energy on a group of people? You are not dating a group of people. (unless you're one of those polygamous persons but I doubt they even exist in Japan. . .or do they? o___O) You're thinking of dating this one girl who you think is pretty and nice right? So focus on HER ONLY! And if she doesn't like you, then she doesn't like you, and you go find another girl that is interesting to you. ^^ How to meet her? Well think. . . . where would a western woman in Japan be? Most likely she has other 'western' friends. How old is she? What places are interesting to you? Would you be interested in that girl you see in the cafe or a night club? She's just like any other girl . . .except she may (or may not) be taller, looks different on the outside, and may be a lot more opinionated in some ways.

    Ok, so anyways, that's that! But before I leave this subject, I want to remember this book. Called Love With A Western Woman: A Guide For Japanese Men. So far i just read a little bit of the beginning but it was interesting. What would a woman tell other japanese guys on . . . . .basically how to date us? XD Honestly i'm more interested in the dating and sex part, and just hearing what other girls have to say.

    Yea people keep saying a relationship with a japanese girl and western guy is more common, blah blah blah, and their perspectives are interesting. But even in those relationships, I want to know the woman's perspective too. Not just the guys. So that's why their stories are a little boring right now. Most of the things we hear in English is from the guy. Where did the girl go? :P I'll have to check out Matome. . . .hmmm.

    Which, by the way, now i remember something that a friend of mine said/expressed. He was talking about how he wants to date western women but he feels he can't do this because his english is not good. I told him we can all understand him, so it doesn't matter. I think he just has super low self-confidence at the moment. And now that I was skimming that Love With a Western Woman book she said something like this:

Don't worry about your language ability -- a desire to communicate from the heart is much more attractive than perfect grammar!

    I agree with her on that. *^^*


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