03 4月 2013

Neon Green Backpack



Here is a writing exercise due in.....the next 2 hours. xD (for screenwriting class). The purpose was to talk about a noun (1 page length). Literally had to do it this morning because yesterday was too busy studying for another class. (9:49 now....so need to leave at 10). I'll update this post, to tell what feedback I got. 
すやすや電車に乗って、後でホセさんと遊ぶ。

“Hey I know you like green, and so I saw this backpack you might like. It tooootally reminded me of you”. “Oh cool! Let’s go then! What are we doing talking?!”.   
   Down the kawaramachi-dori and passing the plentiful stores with clothes, food, manga, music, more food, and more clothes. All the T-shirts have poor Engrish skills or something completely hilarious like “My sister is hot”. There are no bar detectors, all stores open, students with ties loosened and heavy designer bags decorated with keychains, older men and women taking a lunch break from work, a random gaijin towering over everybody taking his time down the street. At the store we arrive and immediately, like a frog tracking its food, I spot the backpack. At the very top. Labelled for 1,000 yen. No designer labels. No complicated design. Just a simple neon green bag with thin straps. Perfect for this trip and the weather. There was no need to think about it. I went straight for it, ignoring everything else in the store, and taking it off the wall. Payed for it. And that was that!  
It came very handy during that trip. It was not heavy in any way, even after putting the few necessities (notebook, wallet, passes, towel, fan, etc), and the instances where we had to carry our own trash, it never became an annoyance. During the hottest days, bra already soaking wet in sweat, hair turned tight curly, immediate tan, the neon green backpack understood its role and executed it perfectly. My shoulders never ached, my back never ached.  
   All of us are waiting for the plane to arrive. Some of us start playing connect 4, reading (or attempting to read) magazines with the hot Jpop singers on the cover, buying ice-cream and other food we will come to miss, talking about our different situations with our host families, walking around the airport, and there are the few who can sleep. But I kept thinking about all the memories I have had with this bag. Once my eyes are set on it, I get flashbacks of why there is a little smudge by the top handle, why the side pockets are difficult to open, all the things I had kept in the front pocket. And now I have had the pleasure to remember these experiences and keep them close to my heart.  
   Today, I am sitting in yet another airport. Waiting. Waiting to return home, waiting for the next text message. My neon green backpack, again is with me packed with my school book, a notebook, folder, pen and pencil, headphones, ipod, charging cable, wallet, boarding ticket, toothpaste, toothbrush, sunglasses and nothing more. It did not always stay close in this trip, but only when it was needed was when I had experienced something amazing.   
   That day I only needed a change of clothes for later in the day, and my school book and notes to study for the morning time. I have never done this before, and I wasn’t sure if the day would become boring, exciting, or horrible. We go out for breakfast, come back to the apartment and head out again to take the longest walk I have ever taken on a beach. Time went so quickly that by the time we return to the apartment, my feet are swollen, shoulders, face, chest, arms, and legs tanned yet again, and my backpack waits for me. Tells me, “it’s ok. I have what you need. No worries and you will be fine. :) Trust in your feelings”. We eat again for lunch, and I take the time to study.   Comfortably sitting on the couch, notes spread around me for easy access, music playing. Neon green backpack is on the floor next to me. He keeps getting closer, and closer to a point where I cannot deny my feelings. It’s ok. I have what you need. No worries and you will be fine. :) Trust in your feelings. As the announcement starts, I stand and walk towards the gate, backpack over my shoulder, suitcase in one hand, cellphone in the other always ready for the next text message. I find a good window seat, put the suitcase away and keep the backpack on my lap.  
Buzz ~I’m going to wave, so be polite and wave back yea?~ 
~I can’t do that because I’ll cry. I’ll put my hand on the window instead.~ 
   We keep texting, the plane starts to lift off. I put my burnt hand on the window, palm facing the outside, face facing the window so the people sitting next to me don’t see my tears. I hate goodbyes, and I never look back. Except for two times in my life. The first time, my neon green backpack was over my shoulder carrying the yukata I had used earlier that day. Both my teacher and I were crying. This time, it carries the scent of someone I have gained in my life who taught me, tenho saudades tuas. I tightly grip my neon green backpack.

UPDATE:  I wrote it this morning, and actually I made the 'story' a little different from what actually happened, only because the assignment asked to write about a noun (not 2). First, it was really difficult to think of something so materialistic... Second, the day where I explain of going back to the apartment, that day I actually didn't use my neon green backpack. I used my brothers blue marathon bag because it was smaller and lighter weight. Still no feedback yet... Will keep posted... :/

02 4月 2013

もし。。。

I should prepare myself for the worst... Tell myself it was just a week; that it won't happen, so stop dreaming and forget. Just 'assume' what you are fearing now is what will be, so you don't keep getting hurt. But I can't deny my feelings...

I can't erase my feelings and memories so quickly... I don't want to give up (atleast on my part) because I hate to ask myself one of the worst questions, "what if...".


It's feeling hurt already, but I decided to take the chance so I put myself in this situation...
How do i get out?


Clase en la noche.

On the train.
On my way to the 'new' substituted class. I chose (choose? chose?) a russian film culture class. I hope it's not boring and not extremely difficult...

Hung out with annie earlier today for breakfast. I can never finish my plates! They give me too much food!!!! They should convert to japanese portions...

Another People

sometimes i wonder:
when he said "i just want to meet new people",

was i just another 'people' he met?
am i considered discarded now?

im afraid

01 4月 2013

1st Skuol Dei

    Today started well. I woke up, check if I have any messages and if I sleep texted again...I did that on saturday with E, and I didn't know I was capable of that. Watched some episodes of "New Girl" which were entertaining (Jess finally was able to confront her feelings for Nick, and the jewish guy was suffering from Cici being married to another guy...there were some happy moments but I felt like I could really relate to what was going on.
    Walked to the train, took the subway, collided with K on my way to class so we talked and then I saw Jose also so I ALSO talked to him too and exchange numbers (since my phone is acting up lately.. >  .>). I hope that we can continue on the project we had initially started on, once there is a publisher and work out all the legal papers...

    Japanese class was good. Mostly talked with some girls about their trips, and american education system. But glad that we just jumped right into the subject. Then went to screenwriting. Also good. Liked the teacher. Not many students. Maybe 14? Felt like he was being a little too introductory...but what can I say. :/
    Met accidentally in the bookstore with Yicheb (met in a previous class), and hung out a bit. While she was doing, was randomly talking to another girl. xD Only because she happened to sit next to me and I needed to use the plug, and yea...that's how our conversation started. Messaging with another new person after Yicheb left for her class (Lucas). I had a small break so...yea just felt like talking to people today. xD If I wasn't talking to someone, I was probably concentrating on getting books/scheduling/meetings.
    Then went to senior capstone class, and that was.....
    like 2 hours of straight up adrenaline!!
    Really!
    Apparently, the class was canceled (but because we are all seniors and graduating, they cant just cancel like that), so the lady said we were there to pick other classes within modern language studies that would be counted as an equivalent.!.!.!.!. I think it had something to do with the teacher? Because the syllabus was already ready! In the process I met yet, another person. xD   P. she's studying under the italian studies program. Very interesting, exchanged facebook.

    Basically this senior capstone is taken from all the seniors who are doing bachelor degrees under the modern language department umbrella. Some of us were japanese studies (me and 2 other girls), others where there for spanish studies, chinese studies, italian studies, french studies, etc. And if you don't take this class, you don't graduate. That simple.... So most of us were freaking out! I still have another year because of my language classes, but I already had planned to take my senior classes THIS quarter and then focus the rest of next year on language and animation minor classes. There's no room for "oh, i'll just take this next year".
    No worries. It's all fixed now. I ended up taking something about russian film culture?..(a night class on tuesday...)

    It was a long day... And still have to get books for political science class, and now the russian class. Make appointment with career office and figure out graduate school and jobs after that.... (Initially I had a plan but now that I saw more opportunities, I am unsure of where to study for graduates...) Make another appointment with apple (fix my phone...i hope). Go to GTS dinner (usual place) on friday (hope to see some familiar faces). Go back to dentist on weekend (finally fix my tooth issue). Organize/clean my bathroom. Exercise everyday (both morning and night-- because I'm getting closer to my goal).

   Yup. xD
    It's a little busy, but I hope I can still get meaningful messages. ^^ And just enjoy my time with friends.
    Here are some music videos I've been listening to lately..





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