確認

ポストした日：３１日５月２０１４年

確認がいる。

まだ続く？

まだ同じやつするの？

解決ために、

別れないために、

何かに信じれることをくれてなさい。

分からん

ポストした日：２８日５月２０１４年

焼きもちを持ってるから、

般若面をかかなきゃかな。。。

よく危ういを感じてる

焼きもち（やきもち）：jealousy

危うい（あやうい）：insecure

自由

ポストした日：26日5月2014年

3月ぐらいだけ。その後、出発！！！

もどかしいや。一人暮らしを通して自由になる。

Women and Equality

http://japaneseruleof7.com/japanese-women-and-work/

    I read this post and there were 2 things that stuck out to me. 1) I do believe Americans emphasize "equality" in relationships. 2) Japan as a matriarchial society. 

1) There is no equality in any relationship. In fact, the woman has more power than the guy in any relationship. It just wouldn't work the other way around. In other words, her happiness comes first. If she's happy, then your life will be happy. Yea he should be happy too and they should both consider each others feelings but you know that you should just say yes to what she says. :P

So it's not equality. 

It's like a balance beam. 

Sometimes she shows her strengths and other times he is allowed to show his strengths by her. ^^

2) Japan to me doesn't seem like a matriarchial society. To my understanding, it's still patriarchial. I'm not serving you a drink because I'm a girl. I'll serve you a drink when you need it but out of my kindness. And don't expect me to do it for you all the time. Womens' names are changed in marriage. Children only receive their fathers last name. Women don't have many advancing opportunities at work compared to men.

    There isn't sufficient support for day-care centers. Maternity leave is like one of the worsts I have ever heard. I'm actually really worried that if I have kids in Japan. . . . and cuz I don't have my family around me I can't depend on my brother to babysit for me, so . . . . . . .what do I do? >_<


    If something goes wrong with your child, some women will still comment on how it was the mothers fault. Daughters tend to be spoiled or "very protected", if you want to call it that, verses sons are treated differently. (To me it looks like spoiled.) Many women may feel scared to yell for help when some creepy stranger is feeling up their skirt in a crowded train. (Don't deny it. You know it happens.)

    Ghosts tend to be women (reflected on how badly they have been treated in their living life). There is an ideal age range to get married that is younger compared to western standards of when a woman "should"* marry. (Men tend to prefer younger women.) 

* Using the word 'should' with caution. 

     Then again I'm Puerto Rican and we are VERY matriarchial so my views are not even the same as American standards. 

違いますか？

    今日は「メキシコとプエルトリコのスペイン語は違いますか」と先生の問いだった。

「全然違いますよ」を答えた。

    皆さん、違いを知ってますか？

    実は、プエルトリコ人にとってメキシコ人のスペイン語は尊敬語みたい。普通な言葉を使うし、常に別の発言を使うし、「polite」や「おばあちゃんのおばあちゃん」みたいだよ。(笑)  例えば、メキシコで別の発言を表すから私にとって、プエルトリコ人にとって、絶対に遅いと思う。その理由は、プエルトリコで皆さんは短い時間にもっと話せるように、いつも言葉を短くして略する。世の中の一番速くてスペイン語を話す人はプエルトリコ人だよ。💕

    その上、プエルトリコで沢山アメリカから来た言葉があるからあちこち言い回しも違います。プエルトリコで「popcorn」の言葉を使うけど、あんまり食べないのに、メキシコで「palomillas」を使う。ただ、「palomillas」の意味はプエルトリコで全然違う。日本語でこの言葉まだ分からないけど、「palomillas」という意味は「常に公園でいる鳥」ということだ。

    ある友達といた時、私に「palomillasを食べたい？」を問って、「あれ？鳥食べるなの？」を考えて「んん。ちょっと、食べなくてもいい」と答えた。そんな返事と言ったのに友達は見せてくれた。「あああああー！そんなやつ❗️」と言って理解出来た。鳥じゃなくて、ポッポコーンだね。

    パナマから人に会って面白い思い出を思い出せる。ある日「たまごにチンコあるよ！！！」声を上げた。確かに皆さんが変な事だと思ったでしょ？！それで、パナマ人はある人に見せてあげて、その後理解出来た。パナマで「チンコ」という意味は「チンコ」じゃなくて、「虫けら」ということだが、プエルトリコで違う言葉を使う。それで、誤解を上げれる。

     さて、スペイン語は国によって違い、意味も異なる。気をつけてね。(^.^)✨✨

Bananas

Day: ③日⑤月②⓪①④年

    I'm reading, "Found in Translation: How Languages Shape our Lives and Transforms the World" by Nataly Kelly and Jost Zetzsche. 

    Some sections are interesting while others are boring to me. But when it started to mention McDonalds and their different menus across the world, I became envious of what is offered in Brazil and France. I wanna eat the banana pie crust thingy!!!!!! I never liked apple pies. I mean they taste good but I prefer BANANAS. 

    I was talking with my volunteer coworker yesterday about platanos (plantains in English), and how in Brazilian bbq restaurants they serve this friend banana with cinamon and sugar and it's just love in my mouth. So we started talking about all these dishes that had to do with bananas and learned that she loves bananas the same way I do. I told her my bf's mom and sis thought it was funny how many bananas I ate, and she told me how people usually called her monkey (for the same reason). I was thinking in my head, " hmmmm. we should make like . . . a monkey team!".

    So that's my story. Watch out for our monkey team in the future! We will rule the world with bananas. Muahahaha!

    Also happy birthday bro! 💕*\(^o^)/*

at his school

 27日3月2014年 14:50時っぽい

     This break will end soon. But, , , , I dont want to go back. 

     At the moment I am at his school. Can't write too much, so will write more later. そうなのに, I'm super uber glad to have come.

    I have spent my time with someone that is very special to me as well as meet the others who will influence my future more and more. Also did the things that i had to do which now I have a more understanding of what I can do. 

     This is really the only place this far where I have felt such deep feelings for the little things in life as well as relationships with others. Its been my first time for many things. 

     I cried tears of joy just from listening to a friends words and was deeply moved. I felt extremely shy and embarrased for something I did so I couldn't relax completely. I've felt and received much love and warmth in ways that I haven't received before. The pride that I held onto so dearly isn't important anymore. I've learned about what real caring is and what it means to think about someone else's feelings. Etc. 

     Of course, I need to learn more and more. Probably I will never stop learning (since it seems like Japan has so many etiquete rules jajajaja). But this is everyones mission in life I believe. 

     Things to improve (that I have noticed since doing this trip): 

- study and practice more japanese (especially in normal speed)

-  look for a job a d start working. i really want to work and prepare for the work that i want to do)

-  dont look at people in the eye when bowing

-  dont cross legs and put elbows on the table when eating

-  dont make click noise when annoyed or. . . . like . . . ever

-  loose weight

-  be more responsible and reliable

-  study more english (look at english learning books)

リンク

http://www.japanfocus.org/-Koide-Reiko/4101

Textbook choosing for elementary and middle schools in Japan. A tricky businness micro-controlled by politicians. Is there hope for future generations?

Seems annoying, , , 

    students learning from political perspectives and not on the basis of truth. Truth does not include opinions nor perspectives; it's supposed to be an unbiased report of what actually happrned and includes all details. 

待ってるね。。

 27日3月2014年 14:50時っぽい

     This break will end soon. But, , , , I dont want to go back. 

     At the moment I am at his school. Can't write too much, so will write more later. そうなのに, I'm super uber glad to have come.

    I have spent my time with someone that is very special to me as well as meet the others who will influence my future more and more. Also did the things that i had to do which now I have a more understanding of what I can do. 

     This is really the only place this far where I have felt such deep feelings for the little things in life as well as relationships with others. Its been my first time for many things. 

     I cried tears of joy just from listening to a friends words and was deeply moved. I felt extremely shy and embarrased for something I did so I couldn't relax completely. I've felt and received much love and warmth in ways that I haven't received before. The pride that I held onto so dearly isn't important anymore. I've learned about what real caring is and what it means to think about someone else's feelings. Etc. 

     Of course, I need to learn more and more. Probably I will never stop learning (since it seems like Japan has so many etiquete rules jajajaja). But this is everyones mission in life I believe. 

     Things to improve (that I have noticed since doing this trip): 

- study and practice more japanese (especially in normal speed)

-  look for a job a d start working. i really want to work and prepare for the work that i want to do)

-  dont look at people in the eye when bowing

-  dont cross legs and put elbows on the table when eating

-  dont make click noise when annoyed or. . . . like . . . ever

-  loose weight

-  be more responsible and reliable

-  study more english (look at english learning books)

日記は勉強の方法としてどう用いれる

ポストした日：１６日３月２０１４年

　なんかさ、、、(-｡-

もっと毎日のように勉強してる言語で書けば上手になるのではないでしょ？まーあ、、間違いも見えるしーーいつも書くよ：Pーーなんて自分の考えや気持ちを表現するも見えるし、楽しくておもろいと思う。（＾_＾）

　とにかく、

今日勉強したくないよ。（笑）

しなきゃのに。。。したくない。

これを観ながら、「いいなあ〜」と思ってた。

　じゃあー

勉強し続く。(-｡-;

勉強

ポストした日:15日3月２０１４年

    I can never bear when we aren't talking/chatting/skyping. My mind starts to wonder and imagine the worst case scenario. I'm not sure why . . . . I know he has his busy times too, but I can't stop myself from worrying. :/

    Suppose to be studying now, but just don't want to. My brain is fried for the day. So far have studied: 

〜ものの

〜ようなものだ

〜ようなものなら

〜かねない

なんといっても

and finishing the day with とてもーない/ぬ. Also have been studying vocab for this chapter every 4 hours or so. Will read 文章 when done with this last grammar. Then sleep. Tomorrow I have a LOT to finish and study. Haven't even packed yet. (･_･;

準備

2014 March 14: the date of the post

    It was a little sad today. I think it is not meet classmates next semester of Japanese, and sad. And a super-over over small clothes I classes ('· _ · `) next semester! In, you can joke someone. Either wording funny someone. I do not know. (· _ ·;

    People to take 303 next semester is a little. . . . . . I do not know why. Is noisy. It is this I'm sorry but I want to express my honest of me.

    Anyway, meet a boyfriend on Tuesday of next week to look forward to. I want to go to various (≧ ∇ ≦) place, you want a lot of things. (I wonder if I go to 🏩 love hotel. There is not that I went to. (Laughs)) family and friends also want to see you. I also want to see Sasuke course. (^ ◇ ^)

    It is final exam of two on Monday, but after this, to prepare the travel of Japan! ! ! 💕 pounding 💕

ノート：実はこの日記を日本語で書いたけどググルを使って英語に翻訳してしまった。。。今まで日本語で何が書いたのか分からん。。。＝＿＝　じゃあ、、、翻訳してみる：

　今日ちょっと悲しくなった。来学期クラスメートを会えないし悲しくなってきた。それもクラスは超ーー小さくなる。('· _ · `) 冗談できるか変な言葉できるか分からん。(· _ ·;

　来学期のクラスを取る人がちょっと。。。。うるさい。分からんだけど、ごめんね。本当の気持ちを表したい。

     とにかく、来週の火曜日に彼氏と会うって楽しみにしてる！色んな場所に行きたい(*^◯^*)それもたくさんことをしたい。(ラブホテル🏩に行くかな、、、行ったことないし)。友達と家族も会いたい。さすけも会いたい。( ^ω^ )月曜日に期末試験あるけどこの後は準備、準備、準備！！！！💕ドキドキ💕

目的

3日4月2014年: 19:18時っぽい

JPN303の目的

① 長い期間に従い単語や文法や漢字等を覚えたいんです。

② 正しいparticlesの使い方に上手になりたいです。

③ 正しくて長い文章の書き方に上手になりたいです。

④ 会話にもっと単語(もう勉強した単語と新しい単語と文法)を使いたいです。

DDDD

Its my second to last day. Guess where I am. I'll give you some clues:

- my feet hurt

- my knees hurt

- im tired of standing

- its difficult to smile and be happy when i dont feel this way

- my shoes got wet

- only have been on 2 rides

- have been waiting a LOT! ! !

- I'm exhausted to where i'm looking forward to the ride because i can sit down and relax. . . .

But I wont say this outloud. That would be bad. But it's nice because now I know that I have to go while everyone has school or work; this way it will be less crowded. And now I really appreciate even more disney in florida. I will never complain about little kids again. 

But i really like the gift shops! They have really cute things. And I learned when Ri shops in Disney stores, she's like me when I am shopping in F21.

Anyways. Will leave soon. Not sure how to become happy. . . It's one of those episodes again. 

How can I do that at the moment? Honestly, I really just want to go running and take a long bath. 

自信

ポストした日: 7日3月２０１４年、8：54時っぽい。

    早稲田の結果を見て自信が亡くなってきた。「なんで取り入れなかった？。。間違うはどこなの？。。どうしたらいいかな。。。もう一回早稲田の準備してみるかな」と思ったけど何も言わなかった。心の真ん中に深い感情を感じた。しかし、どう説明するかな。悲しい、怒る感じ、等。また、何を言った方がいいか分からなかった。(._.) 将来の夢観るのができる？


    (March 16): I look back at this , and I have nooooooo idea what I was talking about. XD

がっかり

本当のポストした日:1日２月2014年、11：46時

    Another month anniversary. . . not a very good one though. My heart just dropped. がっかりした

がっかり(する): to be disappointed

寒さ

本当のポストした日: 1０日1月2014年

     For the first time I'm happy to be in this cold weather. Being in -42 degree (farenheit) weather is so unbearable!!! I don't complain about the cold weather because I know that I already don't like it. Okinawa weather is what I like. *^^* But now that I have experienced what -42 is, I wont feel as bad with 20 degree weather. Still wont like it, but its tolerable. XD

     My muscle feels much better now so I THINK I'll be able to do the race. Have to train!!! ((´･Д･)」

Shanghai Calling

ポストした日：２８日１２月２０１３年１５時３４分っぽい


     I keep getting text messages from a cellphone number that I don't know of. . . o__o? hmmm

     Couldn't sleep at all last night. I think i slept maybe 2 hours. hmmm, but i dont really want to say why. 

          Just troubled. I felt like crying but I didn't.

     I had fun playing Twister, although I don't appreciate being tickled or bumped into. That's cheating. >:| And it was nice to just talk to friends. Last time I finally was able to see Yoko at dim sum before she left. I think she is really busy recently. ? She told me her brother lives in Tokyo and that when I am there he can help me with housing. Why is Tokyo so expensive? T__T

     That day, my mo's friend Beth brought us flowers. White flowers !! :DDD I love white flowers. :3

     Today is the last day for medicine. Hopefully I wont get a reaction again. Yesterday evening, me and Jose had to rush to get more benedryl because I was turning red all over. He was helping me with my graduate application. But if something does happen, all I can do is go to the hospital again. I don't want to do that again. Only because I can't run or work-out so much under these medicines. Can't take a shower without fainting. hm.

     This is really going to affect my race in January. . . . I haven't been able to practice as much as I should.

     I think I'll go swimming tomorrow. Lately I don't want to think. I just want to run until I can't run anymore.

     Also, today I finished watching the movie "Shanghai Calling". I really like it! *^^* I'm envious of the mother.

     Right now my mom has a show on TV, and there's a wedding.  How nice. ^^

Cake

ポストした日：２２日１２月２０１３年１８：２４時っぽい


　ケーキ作ってた。：３
 　こちら。

　I took the medicine and finished this before I become sleepy again.

ムズムズ反応

 本当のポストした日:２２日１２月２０１３年10：21時

    

    昨日誕生日にプールとタイ料理のレストランに行ったけど、後。。。。アレルギー反応あって元分かんない(´･_･`)。夜中に反応がめちゃ悪くなったからコンビニで薬買ってきて飲んだわ。その後、薬からすぐに眠くなってきた。笑。飲まなれば死ぬ。。。

    今も、もう一回起きた後、

    全部腫れて、ムズムズじゃん！Σ(￣。￣ﾉ)ﾉ

    何これ？！？！？！？？

    もちろん、いつもこの薬 (benedryl) 飲んではいけないかもね。この問題続くと、医者と会う。。。。I'm scared(´･_･`)

反応(はんのう): reaction/ response

腫れる(はれる): to become swollen, to swell (from inflammation)